A for alexis

2007-02-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

moved (:

2007-01-31T20:31:00.000+08:00

demand and supply. inflation and recession.

export and import. total cost and average total cost

econs driving me nuts

argh

morng paper somemore

i ought to be killed

i feel that nothing is in my head

wtf argh

i wish i got a bigger brain

2007-01-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

gave d 2 shirts that julia brought back frm aussie

and i havent return julia the money man, told you i need a suga daddy

anyhow, i was telling him, dont care, this all his valentine present

haha, and he told me, ee, you not romantic one

come think of it, he aint v romantic either haha

lunched at cartel w trish and jooolierT

time to hit econs. i bet i will end up slackg. tsk !
ciaos

2007-01-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

collect my remaining pay the other day. 65.
bought d a shirt frm zara 40
jelly shoes 11
a bag online 13
seoul garden 10 ( the person mis counted, so i din pay. buy split w D)
ok, its gone. im broke again. damn

argh.

mooooooo ney...
i hope i have a sugar daddy.
so i can just go on clicking on online sprees
and the excitment never dies out. woo hoo.
eh alexis, shuddup la. stop dreaming

okokok, crap.

i have a super craving to cook for d now
im proud of him, got his first medal
tho, im not there to witness it..
at least the time he neglected me for trg..
now he gt sth in return

ok photos from pscafe last night

besties and nat. rj girl, don play play!

anyway, more to come.. hopefully (:

i want you, like i never had before

2007-01-28T01:50:00.000+08:00

wha. damn pissed now la.
could have gotten a bag thru a spree online.
which cost like $13 sing when outside is selling 30+
argh. just because i dont have internet banking account. damn sian alr
tsk.
kill me

-

national team selection today
i didn't go
not that i want to sleep, just that i know im not cut out
im not cut out for anything
so much i want to be in a team to play with
so much that i have no confidence in myself
again, i choose to run away

if people hates me
what do i do.
a)prove them wrong
b)change myself
c)hate them

i wont do anything, i'll be myself

if friends seems to be getting further away from you
what do you do ?
a) tell them, ask them
b) try to make things up
c) wait

i used to make things up, but i wont anymore
maybe i'll wait.
if you asked, what am i waiting for
honestly, i have no idea

if your r/s is turning sour,
what do you do?
a) talk to that person
b) break up
c) keep quiet

i'll choose keep quiet back then
i wish i'll feel less
i wish i wld be less demanding
i wish..
look, wish..

because you hope, that's why you get disappointed
be careful of what you hope for..
for it might never come true
when you hope, you choose to believe
when you choose to believe to be not the thing you want
you run, when you run
it's hard to come back to reality

met gen in the afternoon. with adrian.
one couple and another couple.
and im all alone.
at some lil street near tanglin
ate at samy curry. nice ! and cheese naan !
den chill at ps cafe. very nice place.
play 5 10 and forfeit was sugar cubes. almost died of diabetes. i swear
and train home.

i like the bus ride home
when you just, sit and stone, listening to sad love song
lookg out of the window during rainy days..

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when you feel like its everything
but its nothing that you have

love, friends. i don't know

sing like no one can hear you
laugh like you never did before
dream like the dreams that will never come true
live like today is the last day
love like you never get hurt before

i cant do whatever that is stated.

2007-01-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

when i come to a point
that i think im rly nt worthy of anythg better
jus i feel so tired
and i guess, all i need is a break

-

3 down, 4 more to go
crs tmrw, den a 1 or 2 day break for me
den got to hit on econs alr. zz

nothing to blog,
life have been quite dead especially during the exam season
but sometimes, the eye-candy appeared and caught a glimpse of it
got to go do some bk review crap alr. hais !

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

ITP

2007-01-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

2 papers down
the paper killed me today, contract procurement
studied till 4, but i feel as if nothing was applied today.

got my itp placement
to some plumbing firm, sound very stupid, i swear
wan jia........ gimme big hongbao for new year good enough alr
just emailed MrOng, if i can opt to QS firm, its the best la..
but if i cant, den i shall accept with the fact and learn something from there
hopefully i can get some fyp ideas from there..
but fuck, i cant imagine myself travelling to simei for 9wks
reporting at 9am........
god bless me please
everyday i can have dinner at kailan's or trish's place alr. hahaha
and i chked on the map..
im surrounded by a temple, a fire station, changkat pri and sec, and changi general hospital.. hahaha
if my building caught fire, i'll be damn safe cause' the fire will be put out almost immediately and im rush to the hospital at the same time
HAHAHAHAHA !
wait, mine is a plumbing company lo, maybe is flooding and not fire that might broke out. hahaha.
eh, alexis shuddup la

i should brainstorm about my fyp man.

nevermind, someone console me please..
everyday is raffles place -> dover
next coming 9 wks is city hall -> simei
tell me about it.

hais, hopefully my company will have those humble people
hahaha, industrial park means no need wear nice nice !
yeah !

aiyaaaaa...... i wonder how itp will be like...
well.....

anyhow, i decided to use the money from itp to learn motor

at least can save and buy one motor

car i can never be able to afford. hahaha.

happen to look through since daphne always say vespa vespa...

seriously its damn nice !

if i have one..

it shall be brown with orange polka..

or light and dark green strips..

or pearl white with, leather brown seating.

duno whether it goes well..

As stated below..

2007-01-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

i hope im not very screwed for today's paper
but i think im quite screwed la
everything seems quite empty here and there
pulling-hair-syndrome acts up
and the invigilator is ridiculous la
after doing the third qn, i cant help it but the nature called
i went out of class and she came chasing me

she: where are you going?
me: toilet la
she: why you never ask, cannot go
me: but i damn urgent, what you want me to do now
she: silence*
me: so now, can i go or not.
she: ok

the thing is that no one ever ask one lo...
what the hell. shuddup la menopause woman.
and the whole time while she paced up and down,
its only either on my left or right no
and im serious, i can feel dose footsteps
damn bloody irritated please.
she just have those bulldog face la,
those that don't have to even start talking to her,
and you'll feel damn irritated. hahaha !

whatever it is, time for me to hit the notes.
hais. contract procurement
cp cp cp
this time not canoe polo. haha

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

ya, did i mention fairprice xtra, is huge.
really.
ok.. i have this special liking for supermarkets.
i don't know why..
i just like it (:

you dont know me..
you dont even care..

2007-01-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

my blog have been quite bored..

so many many outdated pics..

like my 18th bday, short's 18th bday, aungthu 21st bday..

and baguette times..

yeah thats it

last day of skl
stressful khaki

last site visit tog as a class 2b/01

cool lecturer, stud belt eh....

what we used to be..

grey day

porky pig

the baguette i drew

grp photo

love bird

fuck _ _ _

retro

bday shorty

miss kailan

i love this place

haha

siewguat me andi

think dirty

this is funny, happy 21st bday fatty

the watch we bought

doll house: party

doll house: bedroom

doll house: toilet

the dollhouse d make and my gift for bday

thanks for the celebration

my fave

handmade bear

rose

happy bday to me

trish:look at yr bird nest hair

what's left now..

lovey dovey

trying to make my face look smaller here.

thanks people (:

thanks kailan for baking the cake

best people alive

2007-01-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

the mugging season is here
so, im staying away from what im thinking
well,
whatever it is
life goes on la huh..
there's more to life

it's raining
so, no more running
break time over, back to hit the books

F
U
C
K
!

2007-01-20T02:02:00.000+08:00

it doesnt matter how much love you have at the start
but how much you're left with in the end

r/s is not bout having it, but how to go about maintaining it
and not everyone can do it
like me, i failed..

it's hard to ignore the fact that someone matters more than anything
but, maybe you're just a small part of him
i choose to hang on, cause' i don't want to give myself any chance to regret
i am really trying to accept what you are
i know i don't want to let you go again

but i forgot, this is what i think
maybe you never ever felt the same like i do
like how badly you just want a person to be around

i ~~need~~ you around
to care for me
to show me some concern
to prove my existance
to love me

i told a lie, i really want you to

to love is nothing
to be loved is something
to be loved by the one you love is everything

i think, i just have nothing

2007-01-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

i have decided on qs
so is tricia
and, fyp tog
carls tog

-

sometimes, lil things make me lose hope on you.
i wish i will never feel this way

2007-01-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

let me enjoy the sweet embrace, and never remove that wrapper off your face..
- quoted from yunxie

i feel rather empty tonight
the chill seems to be exceptionally cold
it seems even colder when you look at the wall of pictures
and what people have said today
sigh

how many more cold nights must i go through to get things back tog agn?

im neither here nor there
for everything

QS/PM

2007-01-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

future this word seems so faint
i don't know what am i supposed to do after yrs i graduate
i think i just have to fulfilled the 3 yrs bond because of the tuition grant
unless im hardworking and smart enough to go to uni
and work after that, but i think im too late for it
whatever it is, i will try hard enough to do it
study hard..

choosing between qs and pm is damn difficult
this decision will decide what am i going to do after poly
after studying for 2 yrs, i should make use of this cert and do something related
from then on, any thing else should be on top of that
like any other certs if i will wan to pursue it
this will decide whether should i be practical or just do something i like
if, doing something practical, it will just be a boring job
can i survive ? will i survive? but i have to..
that's the better job aspect
if i like it, that's a bonus. definitely
prolly, i dont evn hav to worry bout my jobs in future
and there's a demand in the industry

if doing something i like have a poor job aspect
but its more fun and all.. and again..
what should i do..
every yr there are graduates from pm and everything
this explains with more compeitition
and evn harder to find jobs

choose something i like or something that is practical..
it's a difficult position when you have to make choices..
a decision that will affects yr path..

i have to decide by friday
i neeed the light to show me the way

2007-01-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

skipping trainings seems to be so much of a temptation
you skipped it once, you feel like doing it the second time
busy with personal commitments like work
money seems to be so much of temptation too
and, prolly that explains the disappearance
but while having fun at all, i do know my teammates are improving
constantly improving but,
maybe i was just a loser. i choose to run away from reality
obviously im afraid not to be up to their standard
and i choose to run away instead of facing it
that's the mistake i made

when i made the first mistake of missing one trg
i made the second by running
and i have to face the consequences now

what's worst, it doesnt jus apply to me
it happens to my friend
i wasnt there to put myself in yr shoes
maybe it's just the three of us, that's why i just lost all my motivation to train
i forgot how we had fun during trgs, after trgs.. everything..
just plain trainings mould us to what we are today
time passed, unknowingly all these happened without realising.
if you din appear for trgs, all of us din go either
evn you go, maybe i din go also
come think of it, its mean to just let you die like this
maybe respect, is something i have to earn it
i dint go traning, why shld they respect me
and this is the shit i face

maybe you were right
i dont deserve to keep on sat
whatever you told me, rly hits me hard
i feel the pain
but i know i deserve it..

i know time is running out
but at least we will do something
im going to do something
it's never too late if we try isnt it
rather than not do anythg..

to: kailing
im sorry for what happened, instead of backing you up through actions, i always just mentioned it by words. never did i realise, by backing you up jus simply coming to trgs, as easy as that. today i realise. i hope its never too late for all of us to work together agn, part baguette which pulls us apart and start all out trgs and bonding all over agn. even its just 3 of us, we'll train together because we like the sports ok, even tho sometimes unknowingly i just forgot bout why we come tog for.. sometimes just forgot how we can do other things other than lifeless trgs.. but because of these lifeless trgs, it's how i have you and short. when other commitments sets in, maybe that is how we should learn how to juggle.. maybe because of these problems, friendships drifted, new friends made and realising old friends seems to drift. maybe its jus me who nv turn up for trg. and i promise.. i will.. for the sake of the game, the people.. for captain.. for the juniors.. i will..

2007-01-14T01:36:00.000+08:00

life have been very much of a misery
put on a happy mask and lead it on
its terrible when i realise everything choke up right to the max
when things are falling apart yet you have no clue why is this happening
to see it happen right in front of you, i swear it hurts
by the time this heartbreak filled up the breaking-down-o-meter,
be it relationship/friendship/kins-ship heartbreaks..
you'll just feel that..
world is just going down..
you're just a loser wasting yr life away..
tears flows like faulty water tap
wasnt sure what were you crying for
with the hiccups following up..
you're still stuck in the maze..
hoping everything will be back to the simple map.

it's okay if you're in the maze..
when you thought you could call for a lifeline for a friend to help you out
realising, they were in frustration..
so much that you needed help.. yet.. they try..
but, somehow.. it got further..
you're stuck in the crossroad..
not knowing what to do..
maybe you should sit down, watch the sunrise, sunset all alone..
and start thinking bout it and overcoming it
before you start making decision to move my arse to the left or the right.

i'm feeling out of breath
should i just continue running?
i'm lost..

im tired of being a Man.
im just.. tired..

i sucks in everything i do..
what good have i done..
everything i said seems to be always wrong..
i wish i have a bigger brain..
nvm, i'll try hard to rly keep quiet..
i'll try..

silence is golden

2007-01-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

down with headache last night..
so jus slept my way thru.

site visit today
and shopping (:
bought a black pants frm zara, 50% ! (:

right right, friendly match with ntu tmrw.
i must wake up on time !

nights people
weather getting crazy, so take care

heaps of work to be done over wkend
and mugging period got to start soon

show me the way..

2007-01-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

i hate to make decisions
and i wish i can predict what's going to happen

there's this list of things i fear

but who understands ?

2007-01-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

im tired................................................
tired physically
tired mentally

school's a bitch man.....................
tutorials and reports never seems to end
i clear that snow ball, another snow ball came rolling at me..
WTF?!?!
TELL ME !

whatever it is..
cleared ct, bmt
left doors and econs tutorials and bk review.
great. tell me what's life all about..
fuck sia........

and wait. i haven start mugging when my tests and exams starts end of this month..
dats like the wk after next....
nvm, exams den attachment..
tell me bout it. now TELL ME !

cancelled my work at RC
but bich is sick, got to rush down asap..
cool shit !

what crappy bk review must i write sia !
wth, how old alr still mus write bk review.
i rather fail my crs test the other time.....

fuck la. im feeling so whiny today
strawberry jam spreading on my cb now.
fuck

2007-01-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

happened to wear the same color shirt with kailan
and aungthu and trish wearing dark grey
all of us are grey-ster
haha

ok, tmrw training
but there's a itp talk
i hope i can do some event management thing !
hopefully la

yup, anyhow, went out with D
ate hong zhao ji mee sua, best la !
then bubble tea and shopped
jus 2 tops and undies.
D gt a tee, a belt( he complained his pants dropping la) and undies !
haha
topshop having sales what !
addicted to his psp, something roko one
damn bloody fun ! (:
took neo print

-

love is so short yet its unexplainable
it's when i realise so much..
like i duwan to lose you anymore

-

in a way, im a fucker.

2007-01-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extra-ordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love- its all that i could give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

-

till today i realise love was a real strong word
it doesnt matter whether can i be together with you now
hearing from you is good enough

-

retail therapy today (:
happy la !
1 shorts, 4 shirts, 1 pair of slipper

time to bathe
school tmrw !

S I G H -

2007-01-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

'you can never get over someone, you can only get used to the someone not being there anymore'

quoted from short

it's always nice when you know you need someone,
they are around
i feel very much loved

i like to see you wearing the shirts i bought
even walking past topman, sales
i just cant bring myself walking in and think,
'hey i should get it for you'

i think bout you all day
i miss everything we used to do
but, no..
you will be way happier w/o me
free from commitments..

come on' he have moved on...
(:
like you've ever said, you will moved on if you dont have me.
like i thought that i could..
and i thought...

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No I can't be with you 'cause I'm scared
Felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed and the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
Bad when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

2007-01-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

the heart aches seems to be still hurting
the courage that i see in me was gone overnight,
i see your name popping into my msn list
i just go on stoning..

moving on is a good sign for you
i should be happy for you :D

perhaps, i should just be contented
come on' ..

2007-01-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

worked today, nothing much.
quiet like ghost town

-

sometimes i hate myself
i hate it when people compare me with someone else
im not plain jane
im not a gentle girl
im not pretty
its a disgrace to you
im loud, shoot it right into my head k
fuck, then dont talk to me
yaya, i sucks

you know i hate myself at times
i rly hate myself for want-ing to be myself

-

why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,and pause it at our favorite parts
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

thank you
have you been missing me ?
have i been missed ?

2007-01-03T15:22:00.000+08:00

da tui clan
spas #1

spas #2

wayne ; alex

mighty 3

hum ji

solo

my buddies

la la

very nice lighting huh. haha

tang yuan

UG !!

very amazed by her fridge

supper in the wee hrs

1 hr Q

when i have nth better to do

tuo diao tuo diao !

CRAZY

my favourite (: mimis

OFFFF TO WORK

2006-12-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

its a new year
a new start
a meal for you, hopefully you'll like it even it will suck
haha, anyhow
off for counting down !

goodbye 2006, much love 2007
well..

i guess drawing drowns my sorrows

2006-12-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

new year eve is tmrw
suddenly i realised, ever since i started countg down for new year
i have been spending it with different people every year
and every year they come and go, and never stayed for more than half a year
so meaningful of counting down for a new year

sometimes i just hope, just one person will be enough
or even close friends that you know will be around, all the time
even if new year is over, and a new year comes
friends come and go
guys come and go even faster i guess

haha, don't mention, i dint spend my new year eve w darren last yr
needless to say about this year since its over haha

anyhow, this year
i have no plans for it yet

life can be damn practical

he may seems so nice to you
but ultimately, he's going to leave
so much that you want him
so much you wldnt want to lose him
but very sad to say
he's still going to leave soon, or later

fishes fishes everywhere

friends, will you guys stay ?

hmmmm....
i need to get out of the damn house

what really revolves around my life?
me myself, wong kar yu

2006-12-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

pictures @ zouk with gen

im damn fat how
no one wants me
tsk

why cant i have hot legs
argh
im very bothered by the fact im fat
why why why
tell me why

whatever it is
i had a good date
walkg aimlessly can be quite sweet at times
you dont watch what's the time
and you realise the day had end
the last thing you saw was him
and the first thing you going to see is him

dawn and dusk
day and night
he have forgotten you way long ago
for the better, fatso

i love mrs fields, double fudge cookie
chewy cookies are nice
and yes, frigging fattening
...... dammit

2006-12-28T03:58:00.000+08:00

my first virgin clubbing was taken away by genevieve chow
i had a good night with the mambo music and r&b at phuture
just reached home, and my legs were so jelly like alr
i wasnt sure what am i dancing but i jus danced for the fun of it
anyhow, it was damn fun la
but there's just this ugly side of guys haha!

happy birthday short
nothing much for her, and i still owe kailing money now
and xmas present left undone, lying on the table
dead tired now

it feels good when you feel that someone care
someone wants to wait for you home
wants to send you home
worried bout you
everything..
you made me feel like im here for something
hi, my date (:

im still emo-ing

2006-12-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

i think im a loser
hey, look at myself
maybe you're never at fault, maybe the problem is me
i failed in every r/s, promises, assurances are all crap
words, thoughts are fake
i guess im not worthy of anyone
just leave me alone

i talk too much
how i wish i could just shut up
maybe people will remember me better

fuck
im just a lousy piece of junk

everyone have dream
i have yet to discover mine
wait, will i ever find it ?

i just feel like disappearing for a day, and will anyone wants me back ?
or am i gone for the better.

merry christmas
a good christmas i had, to you
you made my day

-

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

2006-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

was browsing friendster agn
saw your profile, single and our pictures are gone
it hurts me in a way, but i just ran out of tears long time ago
and i wonder, have i put you down
happened to switch to my old phone, read the first msg you sent
textg me those sweet lil stuffs but soon its just gone

you're just like a panadol
i held too hard, and it become powder
and gone with the wind

i guess its better for me this way, too

-

dead tired
update another time what happened at baguette
the stayover yesterday

dark choco peanut donut

if someone treat you damn nice
yet u built up that barrier
will he stay ?

hmm hmm..
i wonder

2006-12-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

well, marked an end for it
darren goh, goodbye
thanks for everything

and again, goodbye
its over
till then, when we can settle down for a meal
it means that you're outta my life completely

as i said, the person i used to love, it will never be my friend
never
i don't get the chance to be the first passenger in your car for a supper ride
i don't get the chance to go travel with you
and most importantly, im not the person you want

i love you once, so deep
no longer

alexis have moved on
dates, dates dates

alexis is no longer the alexis
i'll changed for the better
be back for more, haha

-

fuck tingting tmrw
cause' you will have a bad day tmrw
i better go kick some leaves, argh

2006-12-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

a part of me died
i don't know when
maybe it got eaten up by courage
somehow, im glad it did
you made me realise quantity is not the factor
but it is the quality
and now i think back, maybe things change
maybe you're not all that i want
maybe i got life to change
maybe you're alr tired
maybe you didn't want me that much
so many questions left unanswered that left me pondering for a long time
i guess im packing all these in a luggage and keep it right at the bottom of my heart
when its time, if one day the day comes, i might bring it out and try flipping through
it might be memories, it might be a lesson learnt..
i don't know..
this is a decision made, and
im going to live with it

alexis, welcome to singlehood

i found a new reason to leave this all behind
maybe there are things out there i haven feel it and experienced it
and i need all the time in the world
that youth i have to spare
to taste and see the grass on the side, maybe it might be greener
if its yours, i know he will be
this is test i guess, no pass no fail

alexis can be happy being alone

hmmm, 3 cheers for me? anyone ?
(:

thanks, kailan, short, aungthu and tricia

to kailan
even i know you might be pissed with me bout some things i do, i know you'll always respect what i do. stand by me, and scold me
thanks da mimi.

to: short
late night to boston did paid off, i made up my decision and im going to live w it
s.h.e will nv disband.

to: tricia
i bet yr ears growing lots of ear wax due to dose rantg
i do appreciate, let's chiong hard k (:

to: aungthu
no words need to be said, but thanks for being ard..
and just being you

2006-12-17T02:36:00.000+08:00

friday was the last day of skl and hell it sucks
i hate you, stop thinking highly of yourself
nevermind i shall stop bothering bout other people and make myself unhappy
if i don mind so much, it wont irritate me
ok, i'll do that

aungthu gave me a ride back home after work on sat

and sakae with julia today
happy 18th birthday, julia (:

-
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

-

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,I don't want to take you,
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

highlighted reflects how i feel now

2006-12-13T04:07:00.000+08:00

overdue pictures (:

2.2kg package from julia

huge tear on my jeans

econs lecture, evelyn koh

support breast cancer foundation

meet my korean friend

pretty belt

ballerinas durings ct practical

roof trusses
sample( named after sam) found in bundle of mint leaves
goodbye sample

lick the trees

buddddies
war memorial park

spot the green spider
note the spider agn. from the ceiling
and agn, note cindy's expression ! haha

the sprayed-on tatoowhat i've drawn on a cookie for aungthu
favourite fruit juice, apple + mint
aungthu's bday present

the class's celebration
and the night
#1#2

besties 1

bestie 2

i love you. and you. and you

2006-12-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

goodbye sunday

my sunday passed like a breeze
reached home at 4am woke up at 8am
opened shop at 10am and end work at 10pm

spend my night with kailan, midnight shopping at marina sq
got the same tee, same belt, same shoe ! haha
like totally cool (: (:
first time shopping tog, wth
had hokkien mee at makan sutra with ashley, enjoying the blast from DXO
cheapo
and NR1, shake all the way home
this sleepy guy fell aslp on my shoulders, lol
it was a long ride home

bought this fruit tea that is good for immune system
can make for sam and aungthu haha
and ME ! quite x but nice

my legs are so tired
the only time i sat down when i was peeing in the toilet
and i never feel like getting up agn (?!)

welcome monday
econs report
ct report
gems proj

LAST THREE TO GO !
5 days 4 nights..

i love the world

2006-12-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

i guess friendships are rly fragile
maybe not if the bond is there
project leads to a quarrel
and i seen your true colour
fancy that we were friends
life so deceiving, he might seems so nice
yet so evil

maybe im not miss smarty, oh i dont care
fuck you, lj

anyway, presentatn was shit
don't ask me why

went to buy aungthu's bday present
21th bday
motor ride for me soon

dim sum in the morning tmrw
and im damn broke alr
but i just got my pay yest
tsk
$ $ $ not enough ): ): ):

tired week zzz

on a lighter note,
last week of school next week

welcome the 3 weeks break in advance

flo: meet up soon (:

2006-12-05T01:46:00.000+08:00

neverending projs
pm econs ct, life can be better w/o projs
haha
life have been alright, and im going crazy
i have balance of work, trngs, friends and him

but there's always this point that you have so much to do yet so lil time

and some things you just have to look ahead and not turn back
you might be happier
no point crying over spilled milk
humans make mistakes, and i guess i rly made a big one
apologies doesnt always go with forgiveness
and bearing grudges are just craps
thinking back are just memories to be kept
and remembered
i'm sorry

aungthu bday on friday
guess rly have to get him a big present haha !
maybe we should quarrel this week, HAHAHA !

and a bike for his 21th bday

and happy birthday joan chua (:

confessions

#1 darren goh
#2 seah kai ling
#3 hua qian yi
#4 tricia tay
#5 aung thu

these people made me happy everyday
note: on regular basis (:

2006-12-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

once a week can be so precious
but sometimes it can be damn sweet, sometimes i just feel like..
running away
ahh, i sucks

hit the gym w kailan since i cant go trng tmrw
so threw ball
going gen's club for some amazing race stuff
then happy feets w D

get well soon, billy

2006-12-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

cool. didn't get to present crs cause' its 5pm and left with 2 grps.
right. sleeeepy all day like usual
skipped half of proj manage for crs

headed to baguette to collect the keys
gossip with kailan haha
made a sample while aungthu is away with billy to see some helmets
without me !
aungthu damn unstable, i think its better for him to get 1st party insurance sia !! haha !
then slack, everyone is damn weird
beard papa opening at raffles place (: (:
but, think im quitting baguette

in order to cut down the manpower
more part timers, no slots to work !
whao, pretty smart move eh !

but i rly like raffles city !

): ): ):

then went esplanade to have dinner
the usual prawn noodles
and memorial park
i like that place

tonight was windy

going trng tmrw
time to lose some weight !

happy 18th birthday, bernard & siling a.k.a flo (:

2006-11-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

1.ARE YOU OVER 18?
- 18

2. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOURCELLPHONE?
- my shoes

3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LASTNIGHT?
- like NO

4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
- i don't feel like going for lecture

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE ON UR BED?
- pillows bloster and comforter

6. EVER TRIED TO SKIP MEAL?
- yes

7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
- grilled

8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE ?
- being noisy

9. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
- always

10. FAVOURITE MOVIE/S?
- monsters. inc

11. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
- food, love, attention (?!)

12. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN1 THOUSAND DOLLARS? - i'll go travel

3. FAVORITE SONG WHEN U R SLEEPY?
- boston

14. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
- butterflies

15. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
- both ?

16. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
- mushroom

17. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
- nil

18. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOUWATCHED?
- step up

19. IF YOU WERE INVISIBLE FOR A DAY,WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
- observe what D do all day. haha

20. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND &COULD HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FORTHE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD ITBE?
- saigon baguette

21. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
- i dont watch tv

22. HOW LONG DO YOU LIKE HER/HIM?
- have been loving him for the past 20mths

23. THINGS YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
- my cards

24. YOUR EYE COLOR?
- black ?

25. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYSBRING?
- money, cell, ipod

26. WHO'S ON UR MIND RYT NOW
- i hope my presentation will be fine tmrw

27. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THECLOCK TURNS 10:00?
- im think i should go bathe. haha.

28. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
- autumn colours

29. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
- i wan to meet my future husband. haha !

30. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
- sian, school days

2006-11-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

finally went trng yest
wha, and now im aching like shit
i cant raise my arms sia

rushed proj today
presentation tmrw

im sleepy

2006-11-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

tired. tired. and so very tired.
i think im halfway thru the research and i want to sleep alr !
argh.
nights people

fc 1 uncle dig his ass today. holy shit.

saw chay on the train
well..

2006-11-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

its sunday morning.
sunday morning and the rain is falling haha
dats sunday morning by maroon5

went to have thai express with trishtayquiping
happy 18th birthday, (: my notes copier
and dessert at max's chocolate
large fondue, wasnt that fantastic but..
it was those chats we had
we used to take crappy photos in the lib
i just realised, so nice

well, 18th.. soon it will be 21st
upload the photo when julia send me

i miss my boyfriend

yeah, soon aungthu will get motor
i will get free ride home alr
dont have to rush for the last train! (:
haha so mean

next week will be a busy week
god bless me

(i think im a whiner ?!)

2006-11-25T13:30:00.000+08:00

hi saturday
i overslpt, din go trg
i dunno. din feel like going cause' i know i will suck
i duwan to be laugh at
and im running away from it
i know i will be damn tired
fuck.

haven't meet darren for 1 week alr
to be exact it have been 1 week 3 days
and next week need to hand up econs draft report
and proj management
and crs presentation
tell me poly life is slacky. tell me about it
fuck fuck

went to town yest and got trish's bday present
i hope she likes it, although its nothing great about it
there's a flea market today
collect a top from mamasvintage, 3rd one alr
she's damn pretty la

eh shut up la, alexis

caught just friends on wednesday

check out borders for that book, but they only have it in the audiobook
check out morris but its out of stock, aungthu and i just spent our time reading some books

sitting at memorial park and chill
sugar cane with lemon and home

lascote bag is nice 130$
fred perry bag is nice 39$
lecoq bag also v nice 69$
roxy polka dot bag also nice 73$

whao, cool.
i will never get it

next month will be damn broke
aungthu bday coming up, hmmm..
his wishlist is beyond our budget. haha
shall see bout it

it fair on thurs-sunday
great.
and amazing race is on sat
so i cant work
goodbye, mister $

and cut down on coffee bean, tcc and starbucks next month
cause my pay should be quite pathetic

its saturday today
and i feel so lonely

im sick of sunset, maybe a sunrise would be better.

2006-11-23T00:07:00.001+08:00

argh. im tired.
monsoon season makes me love my bed more.
im spending v v lil time with my bed call beddy.
sometimes when im emo, i like to find nemo elmo and settle down at momo teahouse.

shuddup la.
im just. siao. heh heh.

watched just friends.
just an ordinary show like normal ?
like normal isnt very ordinary and ordinary aint extraordinary. haha

hey, i wan a new job i guess. damn sian alr.

a little snow will be nice

2006-11-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

its tuesday. lesson at 830.
woke up in time.
heh. not exactly la. i was late but there were people who was later.
took back contract procurement, econs and bmt alr.
overall. ok ah, studied so it did pay off.
unlike aungthu, dint study also score well. tsk.

anyhow, skipped trg in the end cause' kailing dint go.
ahh, so somehow skipping trgs makes my results better.

wore julia's beanie to school.
feel darn happy.
well, not exactly.

i forgot to log out my account during econs, and someone heck into my acc. changed everythg.
haha. i thought this kind of thing happened in sec skl only.
damn stupid la. whatever it is. not as if i cant change back.
whatever.

so, went market st after going clubhse to fill the form up.
then it was city hall to find short.
wha. damn sian alr.
i dono what to say

life is just a word, 4 alphabets.
but it's actually a long long way ahead

'unquote from short. haha.

im glad i had my friends around all the time.

carry all these thoughts across an open field

2006-11-21T02:12:00.000+08:00

im tuning in to boston. continously for the past 2 hours.
maybe when love becomes a status to a couple,
attitude changes. its hard to see, hard to measure
you no longer know how to face it
short said, to learn you have to face the pain, when you feel hurt, you will start to learn and grow up
i don't want to grow up, cus i don't want to feel hurt..

and i think about you, it really aches
i wonder what changed.
did you try or are you trying, or i just stop trying alr ?

love is just like you are driving a car
when the tyre got worn out, it just give way
you just need to push the car.
but fuck, pushing it all alone is damn tiring.
its ok. i'll try.
hopefully someone will come by and goes like..
hey, i'll help you
and, i hoped.
i got tired, i sit by the kerb and watched the pedestrians and cars passed by me..
till my vision got blurred..
but, im still all alone..
am i ?

are you going to help push the car ?

2006-11-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

damn tired. physically and mentally
its damn tiring to go school after one whole wk of tests
working and school. totally fuck fuck fuck

damn sian for these 2 days
sam and i just fucked care everythg yest
today i just argh

short interpret that im deprieved from attention.
i wonder.

da tui clan is the best
chill out outside starbucks
laugh and joke

julia is back with many goodies
super love the paulfrank beanie (:

mint slices love me the most
i guess

i really feel like not studying working training
just.. i don't know
do the thing i like
but wad i like ? and now i wonder again

im finding for a book
mph is outta stock, gna chk out at borders
why men lie, and woman cry
short said its nice
gna buy my first book in my entire life

feeling v emo mo mo

on the groove
why(are we still friends?) - 98 degrees

tell me your secrets and ask me your questions

2006-11-19T02:52:00.000+08:00

i had a best sleep ever.
without anything i memorise for the past 1 week. heh !
slept till 2 in the noon. and poof, went to meet the lady for the dress.
and chit chat + play at baguette
sam short siewguat. HEY ! i realise all of their names start w S !!! haha.
shit. im so extra. whatever it is.

i went pa-toh w darren.
yoshi for dinner.
hmm, short and sweet.

then did stock take then supper at RK. haha !
pathetic it was, 4kosong and 1 teh peng.
headed to happydaze but it was packed. so went liquid kitchen.
luckily there was epl so 5bottles of corona and free fries.
chat. and chat. and laugh.

there's this classic one.
when we're at the interchange.
siewguat: wha. here alot of bus
me: of cus its the interchange.
me and short: -stare at each other. LAUGH !
how can a interchange hav 1 bus. hahahaha !

whatever. just came home.

-

everything happens for a reason.
when its going no where, then no point carrying it on.
well.

everyone have their own worries, troubles.

i like chilling out.
at coffee bean or whatever. anywhere.

right, tmrw opening shop w SAMlowlow.
and till closing.

tell me the answers.

on the groove
fix you - coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

when the flowers gazed at you

2006-11-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

HI FRIDAY.
done with mst alrr ! can never be happier.
welcome pretty and beauty sleep. (: (: (:

went msBaguette w trish. had dinner.
saigon with sodachanhPlum. two thumbs up

anyhow, i got put on aeroplane by timo. darn.
i spent my time at baguette. do a lil stock takg.
bought stationaries. :D
and rush home.
and now im chatting with the SET-C people.
hahaha, DA TUI CLAN (:

i miss spongebob for 2 days alr.

school presume next week.
with
1 contract procurement,
1 proj management project,
1 bmt tutorial
1 ct tutorial
3 book review and 1 newspaper article for CRS

may the force still be with me

just another month, and.. 3 weeks break.
time pass fast, right ?

i miss trainings. not the trainings. but the time we spent tog.

on the groove
this never happened before - paul McCartney

would troubles melts like lemon drops

2006-11-17T02:07:00.000+08:00

now when i remove everything, i feel that something is missing. haha.
humans are just like that..

i guess.

like when you have love, you want something more.
but when you fall out of it, you realised you want it.

very hard to satisfy Man.
especially eve.

projmanage fc 1 coffeebean caramel hazelnut latte rainy mug slack mug.
tmrw will be mbw.

feel the groove
boston by augustana

somewhere over the rainbow

2006-11-14T20:28:00.001+08:00

i used to like this song when im in primary school
and every assembly or music lesson, i hope the teacher will sing this song.

somewhere over the rainbow
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land, that I heard of once,
In a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams
That you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day, I'll wish upon a star,
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops,
Way up above the chimney tops
Thats where you'll find me

I know somewhere over the rainbow
The blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I

Ohh Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why and why can't I

so nice la this song.

and. when you realise friendship are so priceless..
you will realise how much you've got even the whole world walks out of you.
the whole world may collapse, but they are the pillars..
(:

have beeen very hardworking, mugging my ass off.
bmt down, econs down..
next proj manage and mbw.
may the force continue to be with me..

visited the new Baguette ! damn nice !
new items, soda chanh with sour plum, POWER ! i love it can.
+ + the chix wings also nice.
when aungthu says its ok, means its nice. haha.
im gonna bring gen there. heh heh !
and itss much cleaner there. well. pro and con la.
cons, no carina and aunties around.. not fun alr. haha.
pros, very nice atmosphere ! heh heh !!

so tired today. took a nap frm 2pm-7pm lydat la.
like first time sleep so long..
haven been sleeping much la.

and i bought a white pants. and white top from pull-and-bear for new year. haha.
post it up another time..

and not forgetting julia's parcel. siao. 2.2kg. i was practically struggling to carry it home, 2 mths nv gym alr lei !
7 packets of starburst i think ! arnott's MINT SLICE. bloody nice la.
(it's avaliable at candy empire at $4.10 for 13 pieces in a pack, $7.80 for 26 pieces in a twin pack, save 4oc!)
aungthu and guys gave me that twin pack left like 8 piece only la. so blooooooody nice. and mint chocolate. a clutch and cards.
yeah, i love clutch and minty stuffs (:

and D's present. handmade DOLLHOUSE !
i like it alot la.. cause i don't get to play that cause last time v x..
now still very x tho. and a pair of shoes. haha.
gimme shoes to let me run away. that's what people say tho.

and, shorty and kailan's video.
made me tear like shit man.
i love lil things lydat.

many pictures to be posted.

life can be very pretty at times..

remind me of what short's friend said..
life is like dark choco, it can be bitter.. yet sweet

tho it sounds a lil stupid. but make sense la.

2006-11-12T03:09:00.000+08:00

great. i just update everything and its gone.
argh.
alright. i got a new dress from mamasvinatge.
tmrw gonna get a new pair of shoes from topshop.

hmmm, caught step up. nothing gr8. but the dance was ggggggooooood. (:
hahaha.

yaya. time to hit the books.
and end of the week.. hit baguette. haha.
no money, no shopping.

bought a pretty watch for darren too. on my bday. heh ! haha

anyway.
i had a splendid bday.
thankssssssss...
aungthu, trish, xiurong, kailan, short,j.. and of cus darren
wait, and many wishes from friendster, hp, and.. msn..
i mean evn its friendster reminder.
but at least u bother to leave a msg or sth..
whatever it is..

life just started being 18.

great.
string of tests next wk

-

tuning to boston by Augustana
very nice song.

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone, ohh it has begun
O dear you look so lost
Eyes are red and tears are shed this world you must have crossed you said
You don’t know me, and you don't even care
ooo yea
She said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains ooo yea
Essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts, across an open field
When the flowers gaze at you
they're not the only ones who cry when they see you
You said you don't know me, and you don’t even care
ooo yea
And she said you don't know me, and you don't wear my
chains
ooo yea
She said I think I'm going to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
No one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly them out to Spain
I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind
I think I need a sun rise
I'm tired of the sun set
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice
Ooo yea
You don't know me
And you don't even care
Ooo yea
In Boston! No one knows my name
Yeaaa
No one knows my name
No one knows my name
In Boston no one knows my name

2006-11-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

damn. i haven done w my e learning NOR studying.
and what, im probably gna play the whole day tmrw..
meaning burn tmrw. fuck the tests man. argh
anyhow..

time to post pictures !

at bear's goh wedding; church
geokhoon,sinne, me

on the train. me, wild boar, trish !

robotcop is wearing v-neck = gay. haha.

beware when you're not alert.

and gen's early present. (:
ya, i was haven a food poisoning the other day.
i puked on the cab.
and i was dirty like shit.
went to the doc.
realise i n terence got the same shit.
and i think is the new mac. fuck it.

let me continue with the presents

and a 1/4 dying sunflower

a num shirt

close-up

and lastly, i panty. hahaha !

close up agn (:

and today while working. kailing, short and J gave me a surprise.
baked a own cake
in my 18th shity life, no one ever done dat la. seriously.
that was priceless. i swear. (:
life was alr priceless with the da-tui clan ard, nth more to ask for alr !

and stupid short wanted to giv me some powerpoint.
but thanks, she gave me a blank disc. well, im waiting. hahaha.
so stupid can..

and very sweet of kailan to gimme a mini scrapbook.
did i mention i love anything with photos (:
cus moments are just there. haha.
and indeed many unglam shots.

and coincidentally, another num shirt

that reads..
i love the font by the way

the scrapbook.
yea i love the canvas also la !

close up

bracelet.

and many packets of sugars hahahahaha !

and a purse for myself on my 18th bday. haha

and my precious boy (:

2006-11-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

woke up in the noon.
went cedele, settle down with rosemary chicken, foccacia.
read on proj manage, know nuts.
went fruit juice, mint apple, had fun.
oh, so they earn quite a lot per day. serious. :O
find terence, plaza, pool; k-pool
had some talk..
he's a wise friend that i can always trust.. all the time..
(:
and finally i get to see joan..
tomorrow working from 10-2.
coming week will be damn sian.. cus its time to mug.
i dread for tests. erything is useless. damn

i crave for someone now.

2006-11-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

man. this few days have been damn busy.
and the problem is that, i dono what hav i been so busy about.
haha. maybe skl work and baguette.
missing canoeing trgs have been good. i have heaps of free time.
a off day on saturday and enjoy my short breaks..
i'll be back nxt term. hopefully with sufficient determination to start right from the beginning. that is..
i have been enjoying myself be it baguette or whatever..
i have a balance of both, working + doing my tutorials and all.
excluding sleeping during lectures. haha.

hmmm, e learning wk nxt wk.
will be mugging hard for the coming term test wk.

things change overtime..
i ask myself have i change, like what others had told me.
i haven.. i dint.. but..
i just duno what im going for now..
and i duno what am i asking for..

im alexis.
just the one you guys know.

but you know how much i hate when you guys changed when i dont evn know what's happening.
all i felt is like.. im all alone sometimes.
nah. its ok..

i'll love myself.

2006-11-02T02:02:00.000+08:00

wheee! finished my crs.
and cross stitch must chiong.
man, there's a gd news, but the gd news is a secret.
cloud 9 alr.

im so so so addicted to coffee bean's hazelnut latte.
(:
and sofa..
and rainy days..

it's been loong i like looking at the rain.
shit. so emo.
nono, im not kailan.

random.
how did people tog for 50years?
love, the right one and...

i duno..

2006-10-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

due to special request to post this up (:

alright, econs tutorial 5 &6 down. left tutorial 7, wk 9. whee.

crs article gonna kill me tomorrow.

may the force be with me for contract procurement test.

damn. i haven finish the cross stitch. damn shit.

im damn broke also.

work very lil days. damn sian laaaaaa.

no money ! ): ): ):

uberly sad alr !

one night stand - daniel powter

2006-10-31T01:42:00.000+08:00

school sucks.
tired. exhausted.
need a break. need money
need retail theapy.
needs lotsa coffee breaks.

i jus want to chill all the way, hang on the laptop
and do my work at nafa tcc. (:
sandbag seats, low tables, smelly feets.
cosy lil corner and rainy days.

if school was like that.

argh. 8-5

on a lighter note,
im collectg my dress tmrw.
but, im broke.

weds, contract procurement test, work
thurs, CRS assay submission, work
friday, CT tutorial 2-2, work
sunday, bear goh's wedding.

arghhhhh!

visit baguette at market st. (:
open frm 730am-8pm

i hate doing work during lunch break.
damn damn damn. rushing to print projects, tutorials.
man man

anyway. i like this song
better together - jack johnson

but, i m happy now.

ya, aungthu special request.

he say he looks like.. HAHAHAHA !

money. friends. love makes my world goes round round.

!!!

2006-10-29T01:51:00.000+08:00

kiap kiap 1

kiap kiap 2

peek-o-boo

favourite (:

killing her own species

fancy bambi ?

boys are smelly.

this is so retarded.

i love myself

wish upon a dying flower

tanning, gen

cedele, econs

baguette, bob

abc, stationary, $40

tcc, aungthu

ljs, aungthu

home.

damn. the dress i want is sold out. argh !

2006-10-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

when you're partially drunk.

that day at alley bar.

i love leggggggs shot

xr and julia ?

when aungthu meets casper..

when you love yourself..

the night ; classmates

and some regular love

2006-10-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

the temptation of contacting you the entire day was overpowering me.
i controlled.
i told myself, i cant.
cause' its called giving you pressure.

ery ring my phone gave off, i was praying so hard there's 0.01% chance it might be you.
yeah, although chance may be so slim. i still hope.
just like, even when one day if i were blind, even i was given that amount of chance to see the light, i'll take the chance.
evn if that fails, i would have to die. i'll still bear that hope.
hahaha. shit. now im dying.

side by side.
shoulders to shoulders.
no whispering.
i was trying to read your mind.
you ignore me.
you never used to be like this..
i change. i change to a person i rly hope for things to happen.

life's just like a flower.
it was blooming and make all girls go weak on their knees.
but it was lack of the sun, the water..
it wilt over time..

so short.. yet so beautiful..
love.. so indescribable.

am i still in on yr mind ?

i always fail in this game.
if it was like 5-10-5-10 i bet i wld hav KO by now.

im losing my faith..
im losing myself..

when can i be the alexis.. looking forward to meet up a person i love..

no matter what i do..
all i think about is you..

kailan:
thanks for the pretty flower. awesome. u're the 2nd person who gave me flower. i appreciate it.

when i look into the reflection of the glass, i saw you.
when it rains, i thought you were hugging me..
when i was walking on the patterns of the tiles laid in the mall, i thought you were playing along with me..
when i get all angry, i thought a kiss was laid on my ears.

damn. im thinking too much. haha. too much drama.

i thought you love me..

2006-10-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

loving you was all wrong.
when was the last time, u really love me..
i wonder..

smile and i'll leave..
leaving this game of love..

i feel so hurt..
like i never did.

-

it turns out to be im another fool in r/s
im still a loser over the years.
im always the one that lost the game.
what did i learnt ?
never love a person so much.
in the end realising the person dont love you as much.
fuck.
its fucking hurting.

-

christina agueilera - i turn to you

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light,
To light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around, yes
And when I'm down,
You're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield from the storm
For a friend,
For a love to keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true,
I turn to you
When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith,
Taking me through the night, yeah
For a shield from the storm
For a friend,
For a love to keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
I turn to you,
Oh, yeah, oh
For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to
Oh, oh, I
Turn to you
Oh, oh, yea
To keep me safe and warm, yeah, yeah
I turn to you
For the strength,
For the will to carry on, oh, oh
For everything you do,
For everything that's true,
For everything you do, oh, oh, oh
For everything that's true,
I turn to you

-

i wish you're by my side when i need you most.
just like now..

2006-10-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

self obsession

before trishaw ride ; on the trishaw ; be the man

vivo ; pacific coffee ; econs lecture ; baguette

MORNING ! hahaha.
yest was absolutely fun man.
had class dinner at ninja sabu. that was crap by the way.
dont try. it jus taste like jap food at food junction.
maybe way lousier. hahaha.

then went to alley bar for drinks. got a seat there cause' we went early.
it was good. im a lousy drinker i swear. LOL.
i got tipsy after vodka and many beers.
thanks to 5-10-5-10. hahahaha !
hella fun. left alley at 12 cus it was so sian alr.
puke a lil and headed to clarke quey.
want to settle at some ktv pub but it was so packed.
momo just got raided so. nah. hahaha.
and we were so sian and headed home. zz
i smell like cigrettes and breath stinks with beer and puke. LOL

upload the photo another time.
when i finally will get cable from darren..

think im going out to study with aungthu.
nxt wed contract procurement test.
and this thurs got to hand up a article.
WHALAU. kill me. shoot me to death people.

okok whatever. hav a cuppa, a slice of cake and chill.
i love that life.

selemat hari raya to mai lai ren.

2006-10-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

worked 12-1230
frm 12-4 was horrible, cause andi was ard.
evn tho short is ard. i still feel like what fuck.
then sammi.com came along. better at least.
sample sample, play play.
i tried one shot of friggin green wheatgrass.
one shot = 2kg of veggies. say WHAO.
seriously, dats my reaction
taste like shit. makes me like wan to puke.
but since its good. den alright.
we ate some soft shell crab stuff from thai express.
the one that aungthu had. damn nice !

then it was supper.
had tauhuey ! DAMN NICE. i love tauhuey. seriously.
saw NTU girls team dere. damn nice la. so sweet.
but not my team anw.
yup then then, walk all the way to kallang searching for a dumb atm
cause' intened to take cab back
then in the end, took the last train back. hahaha.

WE TOOK TRISHAW frm city hall to bugis. fucking fun.
damn! lifetime experience. damn paiseh. but damn fun.

whatever it is.
i like this song..
blind by lifehouse.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

i hate the feeling of being afraid.

2006-10-22T01:37:00.000+08:00

the stitching i've done. alr feel like giving up.

during econs' lecture.

clear thinking. haha !

aungthu. round face.

volcom stone

hi fat fat

sam spells trouble.

2006-10-21T15:07:00.000+08:00

i'm not feeling sad, angry or whatsoever.
but this just came to my mind..

sometimes i just wonder how much i mean to anyone..
simply anyone..
i think no one ever shown how much i meant to him or her..
maybe i dont ever mean anything..
i don't know.
sometimes i just feel like i'm nothing. just like ABC.

-

went vivo. i almost bought a wheelchair.
with aungthu. like wth. damn big can. but most of the shops not open
damn packed with curious humans just like me and you.
scenery doesnt looks good with thick haze. everything was so blur.
everywhr have Qs. settle at thai express, city hall. haha.
laugh like shit. forget everythg. chill at pacific coffee. met terence.
chill at cartel till its close. grab a barcadi headed to SMU.
and hang around evn i feel all left out.
but i just dont feel like going home.

oh ya.
did i mention. i was as usual, very clumsy.
spill the coffee on myself. and it left stains on my fave top. damn.
i wore the roxy shirt for 6 times only la !

and bought many stuffs at candy empire. man. that place is heaven la.
but most of the things are wiped out.
hungry humans !

-

im just looking forward to monday.
class outing ! hope they can smuggle me in.

anw, happy deepvapali. (:

2006-10-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

YEAH ! confirm going shanghai alr. damn happy can
but at the same time im damn worried bout the money.
damn damn worried how am i going to get it.
think my maggie mee days at baguette is coming.
and tests are coming. e learning wk coming.
1 month passed without knowing.
the week end fast with v busy lives.
i have no idea what i've missed out, but i feeel damn busy
v tired. physically. everyday slping after 12 is damn tiring.

ahhhh.
i love my friends.

anw, happy bday yuxian and yuhui (:
they cant see this anw. hahaha !

damn hungry.
i wan sunshine plaza wantanmee.

terence told me world trade not nice.
and i sms while on the bike jus now. damn scary.
ok sounds stupid.

laugh your time away, and u will be damn happy.

-

Daily recipe to make alexis happy.

1 cup of Darren
3/4 scoop of short and kailing with leafy flavourings.
1/2 teaspoons of craps
5 litres of love solution

occasionally some other flavourings like.
terence essence
joan essence
ah lai essence.
( fill in the blanks ) essences.

and of cus hotcakes.
tibits.
baguette.

are toppings ! (:

alexis is a very happy girl.

2006-10-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

accidental flash

welcoming the start of the week with an early post.
just now was a sunday happily havg supper.

tauhuey with sammigirl.com
but by the time i got home, i realise i have to prepare for skl the nxt day.
for endless tutorials, works and trgs.
i nid a break. but its only week 4, means dere's another 2 more mths.
and damn, NP skl reopen alr. i think. no more gd seats to slp my way to skl la. double sian

beargoh wedding in 2 weeks time.
i better start to find some time to go to chinatown to pick the strings and everythg.
think doing a cross stitch cause,dat's sth i know at least.
wedding can be such a sweet thing. but after marriage will everything change ?

bought a top frm topshop and leggings. and i don dare wear la.
cause i look uberly fat la. dammitt ! kill me please.

and i spent $100 yest.
got 2 vouchers for lloydchua.
how lucky man. hahaha !

and, i had a v v v gd day yest.
like how it got started and all..
(: cloud 9.

HAHA !

feeling emo now.
it keeps me thinking like anythg bout friends.
come think of it, im left with like 1 yr 2 mths, maybe nt exactly 1 year. less than dat to enjoy these schooling life. and i got to welcome the real world.
its rly crap la.
like after i left school, how many handful of friends im left with.
it rly keeps me wondering. all the time..

i duno why, whenever i sees genevieve. i feels alot.
she's like a real example of life. haha.
i saw this testimony her friend gave her.
shopping khaki, retail therepy, lime flea market, entreprenaurship.
like, i duno, its sth i and her mentioned.
but she's like doing it with her friend.
i jus felt like, how fake can a person be.
a person hav many faces. haha. nvm, i know who's true and dear.
and i know who's gonna be the ones who will say bye to me eventually.
somewhat, i rly appreciate true friends being ard.
like i rly feel the love. its nt like dose on off kind of thing. i duno la.
haha. im damn glad we're nt like same class or wadever shit.
nvm i duno what m i thinking bout act.

-

im attached agn. back to him. (:
i forgot i dear he was when im w him until i lose it.

suddenly i wasnt excited bout being 18 anymore. cause i really have good times for the past one year. with everyone. many ups and downs.

and im not looking towards of being older, and if only everyone would stay this way. and not grow up and never change..

and i wish..

i'm sorry to you.

2006-10-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

it's another day without you.
time is all we need.
man, i rly love you.

-

another day at baguette.
no free ride home..

played pool in skl.

crs book review due soon.
hav a test in wk6.
econs tutorial not done yet.

and i promised you i'll study.
i will !

shit. i hope tmrw will be a better day.
10-5. boring gems. Argh !

many lucks to people taking o'
and julia, may the many force be with you.

2006-10-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

fuck. its my fault. alright.
its over.
friends ?
i guess not.

sat, dress choosing.. hope dashed .

life jus seems to be crashing on me.

2006-10-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i feel damn sian at work today.
it wasnt the usual me.
ahh, maybe not fun today.

watch you me and dupree.
pastamania.

the more you hope, the greater the disappointment.
teach me how to not hope, when u feel so much for one even its over.

maybe its ok for you not to call me, text me or anything anymore.
no obligation to do it. i cant argue like why you treated me this way.
you know little things make ends meet. but i felt, its getting further.

i dont remember how happy we were, but how hard we have to make things happen, how often we had quarrels, and how much disappointment we all undergo..

and, do you ever feel as much as i feel for you, for anything.
fuck.
i want to know. but i guess i'll choose not to know.
i don't want.
cause' im afraid the truth will hurt..

-

lifehouse - blind

2006-10-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

3rd week of school.
baguette have been good excluding ting2.
especially with moronic sam around. haha.
and kailan and short.
well, i know evn if the whole world hates me to the core.
i noe the 2 freaks are around :D

-

im looking for a dress, pretty one.
not too x, marina sq is out man. too x.
mr goh wedding is on the 5th nov.
quek bbq 31th oct.
10 nov mine.
18 is ma lai ren
25 is trish

i hate school.
tutorials to be handed up tmrw. and im blogging now.
SHIT LA !

12 years of friendship.

2006-10-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

where have the flea market gone to ?
it's just another day of shopping.
i just feel like spending some money.
guess i can never make up 1.5K for the trip.
and its october alr.

its saturday. and a new week is coming soon.
v sad to say, its the 3rd week of skl.
reports hav to be done, tutorials to be submitted.
daily torture of never-ending-lectures.
school never seems to be good.
on a lighter note, aungthu seems like talking to us more often.
slighter better, missing the usual 5 of us.
now, without julia.

5-1030 at baguette.
good today.
3rd time sitting on a bike today.
kusa one. i tink i prefer billy's.
cus the seats are bigger. haha.

this makes me a happier girl

and i heard that world trade centre is 3hrs long.
WHAO, damn worth it huh.

goodbye world.

im falling..

2006-10-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

i felt it, fallen on my shoulders.
one last cry.
one last kiss.
one last hug.
and we bid goodbye.

with a smile on the face.
with a scar in our hearts.
we left for the better.

till we're back together,
we'll forget the past we had, and we'll start afresh.

i love you now and then.

and i miss you. fuck.

-

goodbye my lover - james blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

2006-10-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

when everything goes down..
and nothing seems like before..
silence can be so deafening, and at some point of time, it's killing me.
expected to be, but when im in it..
it's nothing more then being numb.

isit trying too hard ? i rly wonder..

-
coco lee- before i fall in love

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please give me a reason to believe
Say, you're the one
That you'll always be
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say

2006-10-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

life have been pretty busy with stupid timetable.
sometimes i just don't feel like doing anything and let time pass by.
as soon as it could be, like who wouldnt want such life.
argh. sometimes it's driving me nuts.
but sometimes i can be so happy with it.
nvm, gonna receive my 1st Baguette pay soon

new haircut.
it looks the same tho. i think long hair like not bad.

sam me kailing

me, siewguat

vroom vroom ! billy.

i love blurred photos.

i like this photo. ALOT. shoes shoes !!

one fine night at starbucks

ma lai ren

latte

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

2006-09-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

alright.
summary ok !
i have been working at this beer fair for 3 days !
$7/hr. paid for eatg too. haha. ok. easy money boring job.
then then..

tmrw going to work baguette. 1pm-1030.
yeaaaaaaa ! stupid kailan came back alr.
and im bondg much much more w short. haha.

errrrrrrrr.
and i miss the idiot idiot bf so.
kailan also.
and you ji mian.
argh.

I HATE SCHOOL.

best beer. erdinger light. not bitter at all. damn smooth ! german beer.

he tried actg as william hung. but he took off his wig.

terence and me. and erdinger.

robin's face damn funny. LOL

SHORT !

CLARA !

The mystery of a missing shoe.

part of the team.

happy shot and we'll end the day.

2006-09-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

OMG. dragonboating was FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN !!
it's damn fun la ! but it ends up super aching can ! super super uber aching. haha
its like, just shiok la. hahahaha.
i guess i choose the right cca, love canoeing la.
the first 100m, i was drenched totally can. by the splashing of water by the front person. hahaha !
derrick is jus crazy. siao kia.

went D house after dragon boating.
just sat and stone. haha. and obviously fight la.
then ate cup noodles. then stone again.
it was just a tiring day so all i could do is stone. haha.

din't sleep the whole night la.
couldnt rly slp, like u slp but yr mind is jus running and running that kind.
quite excited, but also thinking bout stupid D.
it's amazing i have came so far with him. not very far, but for me, it is.
then talked to that ma-lai-ren in the morning.
i get to hear guitar-played songs. v nice !
im im v v v v impressed.
one good example is kailan la.
one fine day, she just sat by the piano. den i say i like to listen tian hei hei
den she just play. horrrrrible la. dat idiot. freak the hell out of me.
she's prolly gna snorkel in redang tmrw laaa !!
i wan to go snorkeling. if if if, itp last for 6 wks. i make sure i'll go spend my 3 wks with many pamperings !

this sunday im working frm 1-1030. shiok shiok.
please i neeeeed lotsa money can.
then then, nxt wk ..
weds 12pm-1030pm
thurs 5pm-1030pm
friday 5pm-1030pm
sunday 12pm-1030pm

i guess nxt nxt wk i better nt be so mean. guess i'll take weds and sunday only. haha.

i got into psychology ! triple yeah !
joan chua rocks la. but i owe her a meal.
cheap one ok ! (: hahahaha !!
darren got into diy pc. so lame laa !
anyone choose the same gems as me ? i hope so la.
its sad that no one i can talked to..

i guess trusting is the most important thing in every r/s.
whether you feel so insecure. but, thanks darren for what you said.
ilu !!
altho sometimes i can be unreasonable, violent, kaopei, the list goes on.
you're still the dearest la. dammit.

2006-09-20T01:33:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes.
how. i love shorttttttttttttt.
she post up this stupid post.
and i jus laugh and laugh. and i want to cry alr la.
how can i live without u 2 freaks after graduation ! arghhh !
friends are really important when i know them.

although skl gonna reopen.
means we'll have lunch more often at fc1 tog.
(: i miss that somehow.

went trg.
did only 2 stationssss ! duno why we do so slow also ! haha
den sprinting.
while running outside skl gt stitches la. i tink cus of the maggie mee in the noon.
and my mucus flowing like water tap !
think must go run more often. i must get my tone legsssss.
i don care la. i damn jealous of slim girls' leg la.
sound sick but its trueeeeeeeeeee !!!!
yaaaa, the jr girls always gossip and its darn obvious. hahaha !
then then camped in the girls toilet crapping while waiting to bathe.
den subway. feel that bit of love. (:
vroom came and fetch ra. damn nice la.
and i tink motor are quite cool hahaha !
and its cheaper. cus more dangerous. hahaha !

i hope can get into psychology, if not, scents cents sense if nt weather, worse come to worst unreavelling secret of life. hahaha.
it must be friday la. dat 3 hours break or else i will break down and cry pls.
hope joan have the luck pls.
nt dat joan, don misunderstand. haha.

DRAGONBOAT-ING TMRW ! DAMN EXCITED CAN !!!
i have beeeeeen waiting for like so damn long.
and finally. tmrw...
plus plus tanning session. hahaha.
but i dont like kallang cus the water v dirty.
luckily jan and ra going. haha.

man, i rly want sat to come soon. polo trg !
but i hope sunday will never come. ):
schooooool SUCKS.

kailan is leaving tmrw la. hais !!
arghhh ! i abit miss her alr la.

to: julia
HAHAHAHA ! who ask you buy so smalll !! hahaha !
of cus nt nice wont buy la. den buy meh !! siao ah. haha
60 days means 2 months. wth.
its only mid of the sem when u come back laaaaaaaaaaa !
arghhh
screw SPPPPP !!!!!!!

i guess D slpt alr.
no msg frm him. ):
why never msg me ?

2006-09-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

come think of it.
im way happier than i was in sec skl.
i saw genevieve's friendster.
i duno why i feel this way. but i think she is the friend i don't want to keep.
sometimes i really think im a big hypocrite la. but life is jus this way, i guess.
i see her change somehow.
i feel as tho she is trying to be someone she is not just to blend into her environment.
all day she think about pubbing, clubbing, guys, money, pretty clothes..
doesnt she worry about her future ?
the least is to get a decent diploma in SIM. i think that's the minimum she can do.
im worrying for her, altho it's none of my business.
if we were said to be best friends, i really dont know what's so similar bout us..

im way happier with what i've got now.
and im thankful and damn lucky. really.
friends, canoe polo, teammates, and D..
and Baguette, happiest workg place la !
maybe its still early for me to judge.
im way too kaopei ! haha.

jr girls seeems v happy now.
when i see a happy group, i often think to myself, are they really happy or just putting up a fake front..
if my batch used to be this way, how will it be like now ?

ok alexis, stop poking yr nose in someone's business.
mind yr own.

you know something, altho life sucks sometimes, but..
there will be this period u'll jus be on cloud 9.
maybe cloud 10. haha. crap.

reveal my early bday wish.
someone will drive me to drive in mac and buy hotcakes for breakfast !
i don't mind bike also !! hahaha ! bicycle also can !
(: (: (:
what nonsense.
but i swear i will be uberly happy. really.
and and and a self made bday card. hahaha !
i tink i will need to wait afew years before its being fulfilled. haha!
but nevermind. 18 is coming. what a nice no !

to: julia.
eh, bloody hell. when are you coming back la. damn long alr la.
and u haven send me that sakae pic !!
i'll buy you sth frm shanghai to make up for what u gave me ok ! haha
nxt time pls buy bigger size shirt.
im trying v hard to get rid of my tummy. LOL.
my gems appointment tmrw i tink i wan physocology. shall see lo !

-

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tummy in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed

2006-09-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

perhaps, i was too selfish.

2006-09-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

the sp girls team

seriously i love this team more.

ever since that day against nus. it was the most memorable.

even at the sub line. the feel was so strong. i swear.

had NYNY w them. spent hell lot of time crapping +ghost stories and random stuff. haha.

i feel good.

kailan leavg for redang soon.

and i need to chiong work soon.

if nxt nxt wk i cant get any days den i guess hav to chiong banquet instead alr ! money money shanghai coming !

and again

i love d goh.

if u ask me how much i love him..

i cant measure.

2006-09-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

the bday girl

bday pressie + a slice of cake !the very unglam shot. haha !

three is never a crowd (:

he love the sound.couple. v vegetarian

stupid monkey face

me ! long or short hair ? vote !at work

kailan gna leave for rendang soon.
shit.

still thinking wad gems to choose.. zzz

2006-09-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

hey hey
im back.
blogging at D's house now.
supposed to be at Baguette but was down with cramp v v v v badly and..
i went home.
supposed to go wei min but, when i reach sg i was ok alr.
hahahaha ! 9bucks cab fare, more worth it than frm amk to yck 4.50 la.
this is bad. twice of cabbing in a weeeeek.
ya. i like to do closing. but today cant.
hais. tmrw do opening. i hope i get good shedule nxt wk.
noe my time table ? its suck
monday 5pm
tues 4pm
wed 12pm
thurs 5pm
friday 6pm

wth !! 3 mths. i tink i will prolly jus die.
one a wk with D. 2 times trg. and working.
i must work. shanghai trip and my big big big red crumpler waitg for me.

darren playing with his Rc car nw. nvm
he will be back in 5 mins cus the batt will jus die out.

i rly like the song i'm yours (:
im off people. come visit me alright.
i can give u extra pate, mayo,marinated veggies, cucumbers chillies and parsley. hahaha.
chix also (:

love you darren goh.

2006-09-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

haissssssss. my results damn sucky.
i hang out with tricia but why her results is always on the top and mine is like shit sia.
and she always last min den study just like me.
some people are just smart. arghh. she gt 4As lor.
me only got 1. somemore got 1 D. FUCK. sibei sian

2006-09-13T12:36:00.000+08:00

1/2 hr more to results.
the fear is torturing me.
i think i will score v badly.
arghhhhhhhhhh !

opens. SP girls third
ivp. 4th.

JL sales ended and followed by Baguette.
JL sales shortened my life span.
wake up early, long hrs and never-ending crowds.
plus havg comp in between forfeited my off-days.
and makg up the lost hrs is the horrible part.
the night never seems to end.
at 1045, i see customers takg their own sweet time to browse their items. Fuck.
and that night, the last transaction was ard 1120pm.
aint they tired, im lor ! tsk.
luckily its over.

yest was my first day at baguette.
as usual i was clumsy. i dropped the knief with pate on top.
heng! gt apron. haha !
i tink the sales was bad yest because of the imf.
i guess today will be worst.
working frm 5-1030.
heard frm short that ting2 damn irritatg.
argh ! workg w her today can. may the god be with me.
i learnt how to make the mini sample yest (:

and did i mention on the last day of expo sales, my cash till short of 50$. wth
and on the same day. i lost $10 myself.
but on a lighter note, i bought heaps of food from the food fair.

kim san soon is ending. no more rushing back home for me. haha !
BUT, for the next few nights im workg the night shift. zz

i got a new job nxt wk. 1 hr $7 bucks !
at this bukit timah club cus gt this wine tasting fair. wha shiok.

oh ya. upload kailan's bday pic another time.
fuck 20 mins more.

2006-09-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

happy bday KAILAN

sp currently fighting for the third place. hais !
if they won the match against nus. we wld b in the 2nd place.
well.. its surprising things had come this far..

john little had been slacky.
and kailan and short gt employed by baguette. (:

end.

2006-09-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

ok. i din burn the jersey after all.
i feel the way it shld be. (:
match was uberly gd gd gd ! gt in semi finals altho not cus of me.
welcome the force.

got a new phone. k610.
and im employed by the Baguette place.
went there yest to tabao for my mama.
and they interviewed me on the spot bcus the lady misplaced my number e other time !
gna bring leafy and short for interview since they are openg a new branch. ya wheeee !
i think i will enjoy wrkg there since they noe me. haha ! im a regular !
but things always seems easy is not that easy.

r/s has beeeen gd gd too.
yest was the officially day we went pa-tuo. cus we got absolutely nth on !
went to eat NYNY. and tab n doug gna wrk dere. la la la. gna go disturb them if we gt the money ! xD
and arcade as usual.
and i have been missing my kim san soon ): ): ): ): ):
the blooody male lead is godddddd damn handsomeeeee !

LOOK AT HIS DIMPLES ! omgggggg !COOOOOL RIGHT !

running out of saliva..

TOLD YOU.

channel U, 10pm, monday to friday. pls catch.

and i hav beeen spendg my time w short and kai. nxt wk is the john little ! yawns !

slping now. love ya people

2006-08-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

i feel like burning the fucking fbt wadever shit ivp shirt now.
right now.

waste my 17 bucks on a lousy quality.
ugly jersey.
and worst. worthless.

read whatever you guys want la.
i dont give a fucking damn.

2006-08-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

hais. cant help but thinking bout it.
while listening to coldplay, the scientist..
"nobody say it was easy.."
so true..
hais.

i never want to rely the senior girls again. never.
train hard ba. i dowan it to be just talking.
should i start thinking positive..

the truth always hurts the most.

what's life all about..

to a clubber.
club dance drink

to a drug addict
sniff freeze high

to a canoe poloist
speed hatred passion

and to a person who is left out
demoralise disappointed ..
and.. on a track. running away.

lucks to el clasico.
lucks to the girls.

polytechnic singapura whoosh !

2006-08-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

worst day of the year.
don ask why.
i guess elimination is a sure to happen and..
it doesnt feels good.
well.. maybe i just put too much hope

darren always there to see the ugliest side of me.

the bbq was good. ribs and steak.
and a lil random laughter frm his relatives. looks so nice.
hmmmm..

played his car.
upload the video another day. drift drift.

met timo.
saw gen n clay at the flea mkt.
no wonder these few days she dint contact me..
maybe while busy mugging.. she was busy too..

and when i need someone..
im thankful i have you, D.

i really feel like escaping frm reality.
like now.. and tomorrow...

2006-08-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

oh oh ! upsize fried mars bar. look at short face.
anw, realise im not dat black. eh short, MALAYU AH !

and while having it half. half of it flew on my shirt.

ok, and that's mess. as usual clumpsy la.

when my mouth is full.

notice the shirt tan ?

now u see kailan

and where's short ? headless.

long ge ; wayne ge we're the brothers

excuse me, no comments.

OIE ! DONT LEAVE ME OUT - short

different genes makes up diff ppl

three is good

alexis: eeeyer short u nv brush teeth. yikes !

kailing: ya la. damn gross

short: is you lor !

den lydat black black how !!!

too much to be uploaded and starhub is slow. and maybe my comp due to excess porn

tmrw is nat champs. and darren hav a bbq. not invitedd BOO. haha.

yup working at plaza nxt wed and fri.

went interview at gelare with ah short. jus went in for fun kind. and.. they offer us 5.50.

i think its not dat bad la in F&b industry.

hmmmm. things hasnt beeen bad. but bad becus im short of money

good because there's kim san soon playing on chU frm monday-fri.

okokok v v random.

we sew the spraydecks and the lifevest today.

and the senior girls contributed... absolutely nothing. well done girls. fuck them man

so they think tmrw go down can win la. idiot. minimum thing is to help out la since its part of everyone's competion.

always make things until so er xin. you know they really make me hate them alot.

especially clara. demanding. wan this paddle den take.

i know la, i know its YOU GUYS comp. whalau. fuck la. maybe im jus unhappy im not in. haha ! well.. i jus wish they disappear la. irritating.

hmmmmm.. arcade is fun anw.

went arab st today. DDbum bought this RC controlled car.

guess how much isit. 420$ -.- dats crazy. but since he got the whatever reward if u have good results. so.. i think its alright la.

ahhhhhhhhh~ if only money drops from the sky..

and interest will become a flair in you. LOL.

what nonsense.. and i had viet baugette.. yest and today. i hope they love me ! haha !

im hungry. im craving for pasta.

tmrw dere's a flea mkt. miting timothy tmrw..

and sunday is the ivp. well well well..

that's all folks.

nights people miss me

2006-08-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE !
are you guys missing me ! i know you you or you do.
IM BACK ! EXAMS OVER YEAHH!
HI WORLD !!

yes yes exams are over.
and im slacking
as im slacking there's nth to update.
i have been with D most of the time.

and damn shit now.
my measurement e learning assignment tcher din receive it. damn !
fuck electronic shit. die la !
and she sent the email one mth ago. i don read skl EMAILS !
arghhhhhhhhhh

this is my saigon baugette (:

testing out his new phone

looks deceive hor. im not that slim. HAHA

acting stupid

another one

feel the love

sexy bf

some time back, coincindentally wore the same top

happy D

sad D

angry D

Confused D

Stop taking. im tired. HAHA

i love you

three-some

marriot days.

ahh. i need a job

that's all people

to julia

yes, pls try carls, and u will realise you will see your ever-so-big tummy. LOL

dats why i always bring a sweater. and

the person that u mention sound pretty familiar huh ! xD

2006-08-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

opens and ivp is going to be next sat and sunday.
doesnt really make a diff to me.
after all, today trg was good good goood !
just happy la, but as usual, disagreement between janneth agn
like AGN ! what's new la.
every wk she will be the one that irritates us. argh !
but it was tiring, like play zone attack for like 1 hr plus, and lil tiny cuts on my toes..
and many many laughs with the happy 3 friends.

then darren came to skl then we headed to town.
walked around den in the end ate carls. cause he din feel like eat baugette.
spend the rest of the time playing arcade, 3$ each on that drum games.
getting a hang out of it alr ! lala !
$1 for 3 times lei. not bad la, better than the grabbing sweets game. haha
then saw these people playing RC controlled car doing DRIFTTTT ! haha. cool right.
and darren bought one for himself also. heh heh heh ! uberly cool !

damn tired tho.

sometimes i really don't like people that are like very very insensible..
i duno why, it doesnt mean im v v sensible..
but sometimes i feel that shen zhai fu zhong, bu zhi fu.
either they're damn spoilt or whatever.
is it a good thing being spoilt or what, im not jealous or whatsoever..
sometimes while blog-hopping, some would mention, im a spoilt brat so what.
is it because of face to tell people they know it themselve or is it, to prevent people frm saying right in their face or its a good thing ?
if you know it, why did you mention?
in my view, spoilt brat are rather loser.
so mean la, but.. one fact that they will never understand..
doesnt mean the thing you want you can get it..
some things are just beyond your control if you yrself dont control.
like studies, how can you not study but expects good results.
i can stay my eyes 'studying' for 3 hrs but nothing gets into the mind also equals to zero.
you know i hate people that complained all day they have no money even tho they're like freaking rich..
like my mom jus gave me $800. but its not enough cause i want more. -.- FUCK LOR.
haha. but obviously $800 is not enough for a gucci handbag or a few meal at equitox (i think this' the spelling) or several dior shirts or more pubbing and drinking.
being manipulate by people around is bad.
this shows you hav no power of your own to control your own mind, don't reflect upon your own actions and so on.
i will never try to merge into a grp that love roxy while i dont like but try to go according to their likings. nah. being led by the crowd.
and you will never know what you want.
so what if i shop for cheapo neh neh stuff.
all my stuff frm flea market, and so what. as long as its nice. i dont care. rly.
life jus so practical. looks jus deceive and making a decision frm it.

well, maybe its beyond my concern la.
think i today abit sot sot.
KNOW WHY ?
cause i jus came menses today -.- !! SIAO.

ok, from 21-24sept i will be away and away and away !
to Mt. Ophir and Genting.
well, its just msia la but its a 1st lil getaway trip with my friends.
and my my my 1st travel with my friends organised by ourselve when we're 18.
sound so stupid. but..
im still v v v happy.
since 20th was the last day of.. hungry _ _ _ _ _ festival..
and camel-kuku-chris can only go after that.. therefore that's the date decided.

someone, pls intro me part time job !!
the coming IT fair would be good ! : D

you know what.
i seriously hope i won't grow up anymore.

see.
if you 18, before 2nd sem and YR3, you dont hav to go attachment and yr long proj.
and after poly means working life.
and meaning you'll can never do things like what you want before.
like attending camps. i'll miss that..
i haven gone to any camp with kailan..
maybe next yr the mighty trios can go somewhr tog. hopefully..
and i guess poly times was the best times in my entire life..
i met all kinds of people..
good but with evil intentions, sly one, quiet but chiong studies kind..
haha. tho quite common, but you see more of these.. like seriously. haha.
its terrifying cause imagine the entire world is just like this. contains such contents

pretty random.

YA, BAD NEWS.
sp co op shops are closedddd unless they can bid the place agn.
arghhh, potato and chicken pie, glass jellies, super green tea and bonding session.
and poor aunties always mop the floor cause the polo people always go in caused we're usually wet.

and if one day i graduate..
i'll miss.. uncle david lor. lol.

agn, i thank god for a good day today (:
and everyday with wonderful people around.

i hope sp can achieve sth this year.

2006-08-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

kars, what do you want to have in life ?
what do i exactly what i want to do after 3 years of poly ?
why is it did i jus accept with fate that im in this course and not try to change it ?
hais. but i guess my results are really bad.
or im not the study type and not hardworking, there might be 10,000 more people that might study more than i do.
out of interest, went into ntu website and look through the admission criteria and shit.
i cant find what is the criteria, but im only applicable to these courses..
Accountancy
Business
Chinese
English
Economics
Psychology
Sociology
Arts (NIE)
Science (NIE)
but that's only if i can make it. if im that 0.01% in life that prove miracles happen.

well, i just read that the form that require you to fill in yr poly results by calculating the nos of A,Bs,Cs in the entire 3 yrs.
if you notice A is singular. and Bs and Cs show many of them.
i just close the site.
not reading anymore.

if i have the money..
i can study anywhr..
but agn, if i hav the money..
wld i study hard ?

did i mention, i had my favourite today.
saigon baugette and soda churn (:
and i love D.goh

and bloody saw stupid stupid kailan !

i do wonders, how often does god let you meet friends of your own..
like kailan and short..?
one and only species.

v v sad

2006-08-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

-

sometimes love can bring you to great heights, enjoy that special moment..
but this special moment is just like a can a gas-ed drink.
the moment you open, the gas escaped.
and after it is left there, it becomes like any other syrup drink..
and usually forgot how the it first tasted like.
it happens to me. maybe i took things for granted.
i get agitated most of the time.
but i guess this time is different.
and love can bring you to very low peak.
right from lying on the rainbows to the muddy ground.
guess loving someone is just.. all the little things.
the 30sec call he give to ask what are you doing.
the 1 sms that tells you he is right outside your house bringing yr fave food.
when you get all pissed, he tries to make you laugh..
when you're stressed out, he is just right outside your house.
well, prolly thats only when.. its the starting of the r/s.
if everyday was the honeymoon period.
seeing you everyday cheers me up
but to you, seeing me everyday was a used-to-it thing
do you ever thought of what im thinking now ?
how do you define love..
and, i can tell you a hundred times to ask you to tell me you love me..
but is it what you really feel towards me ?

fireworks was something i hope someone will ask me to watch.
hmm. gen and timo. nah. not the people i want to spend this squeeezy suashy moment with.
but just you.

did my name appear all over yr notes ?
i think mine did. i dreamt bout you all the time while i was stoning.

what is love.

maybe i was jus being too emotional.
this is not what it is supposed to be.

i love you.
how bout you ?

2006-08-14T12:20:00.000+08:00

3 papers down.
and, sat was the duathlon.
i feel so cheated really. no havaniaus la. fuck.
and all we got is all those orientation package from NP.
like water bottle, foolscape, pen, file..
and and, its all like orientation 03/04 or 04/05 damn shit la.
what a bad host.
but i think i have heaps of fun.
especially the canoeing part.
when i ran back, i think we were lagging behind like quite badly..
but the canoeing part we're the 12th boat la.
the feeling of rowing past the boats jus... SHIOK !
we're the best partners la !
afterall, i threw away the file. too bulky.
but overall, the shirt aint that bad.

haven seen the stupid short la. and i finally get to see her !haha.kuku.
the happy trios.

and had sizzler for dinner. 1-for-1 salad buffet but it was good enuff.
post celebration of 17th months (:
then took bus, and we're caught in the jam for 2 hours. caught like 10secs of the fireworks.
cause the bus was behind millenia walk and when the fireworks shoot damn high then we can see.
and what's worst, 3/4 of the bus made up of banagla, its ok. but i tink they press the bell for more than 10 times.
and this bloody irritating ah lian jus kip shouting in chinese "fireworks started alr.."
almost asked her to shut up, luckily the bus driver open the door eventually.
and it was bed time. haha

ask the baugette place for a job. but i think i wont be able to get it cause they got 2 people on hand that can start this wk which i cant. so nvm.
but i interview at coach's cafe yest. the kallang coach.
its at yck. above the gym. think its not a difficult job.
there's one month to try out, so jus try lor. and its $4/hr.
and had a chat more than an interview with the boss.
then the shanghai meeting.
same old worries..
and i hope bay can make it..

oh well.. nothing much alr.
weds, pmm and.. friday bs2..
and im left w one last paper. wheee *

2006-08-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

shiok shiok. duathalon is this sat.. and here comes my goodieeee bag !
and goody bag and its really good. hahaha.
a havaniaus slippers and a shirt. la la la.
but it means 4km of running and 4km of rowing. zzzzz !
after not trg for 3wks. i think i will die.
my muscles become fats alr !

and right at this moment, lloyd and i are jus gosssiping non stop bout the usual la. haha

structures was ok. din noe how to do 1 qn. but not sure bout the rest either.
and and, thurs will be MBW and friday will be CT.
damn la. i jus hope i don fail CT. god, please gimme super memory power.

hmm, guess what i had for lunch ?
wafffffles from gelare CUS it's a TUESDAY today. 50% off !! its only 5.50$ for a large one with a scoop of ice cream !
and and triple C from chirpy.
andddddddddddddddddddd !! VIET BAGUETTE. my fav ! (:
and new set of diff people working agn. they really have alot of staffs. haha.

then went to develop photos. damn x la.
and D came my house for dinner. haha.
my mom sort of invited him but he also thick skinned so he came.

then slack a lil. play poool andddd..

toe ask me to supper but i din cause i expect myself from mugging.
butttttt, i din laaaaa ! sin sin sin.

chiong tmrwww.

nights people. i'm quite a happy girl
looking forward to hols.
someone recommend me a job.
ikeaaa din call me, prolly cus im a job hopper ):