Tuesday, January 16, 2007

skipping trainings seems to be so much of a temptation
you skipped it once, you feel like doing it the second time
busy with personal commitments like work
money seems to be so much of temptation too
and, prolly that explains the disappearance
but while having fun at all, i do know my teammates are improving
constantly improving but,
maybe i was just a loser. i choose to run away from reality
obviously im afraid not to be up to their standard
and i choose to run away instead of facing it
that's the mistake i made

when i made the first mistake of missing one trg
i made the second by running
and i have to face the consequences now

what's worst, it doesnt jus apply to me
it happens to my friend
i wasnt there to put myself in yr shoes
maybe it's just the three of us, that's why i just lost all my motivation to train
i forgot how we had fun during trgs, after trgs.. everything..
just plain trainings mould us to what we are today
time passed, unknowingly all these happened without realising.
if you din appear for trgs, all of us din go either
evn you go, maybe i din go also
come think of it, its mean to just let you die like this
maybe respect, is something i have to earn it
i dint go traning, why shld they respect me
and this is the shit i face

maybe you were right
i dont deserve to keep on sat
whatever you told me, rly hits me hard
i feel the pain
but i know i deserve it..

i know time is running out
but at least we will do something
im going to do something
it's never too late if we try isnt it
rather than not do anythg..





to: kailing
im sorry for what happened, instead of backing you up through actions, i always just mentioned it by words. never did i realise, by backing you up jus simply coming to trgs, as easy as that. today i realise. i hope its never too late for all of us to work together agn, part baguette which pulls us apart and start all out trgs and bonding all over agn. even its just 3 of us, we'll train together because we like the sports ok, even tho sometimes unknowingly i just forgot bout why we come tog for.. sometimes just forgot how we can do other things other than lifeless trgs.. but because of these lifeless trgs, it's how i have you and short. when other commitments sets in, maybe that is how we should learn how to juggle.. maybe because of these problems, friendships drifted, new friends made and realising old friends seems to drift. maybe its jus me who nv turn up for trg. and i promise.. i will.. for the sake of the game, the people.. for captain.. for the juniors.. i will..

fart and run 10:52 PM